Maybe it was the big meeting I had at uni today which has been the catalyst for neurological exhaustion and an innate sadness of biblical proportions, but I feel like I’ll keel over any minute from a toxic mixture of the two. So not a real blog today, just some words.
I’ll be taking some time out from the one thing in life I love and live for, and hopefully be qualifying in December 2018.
Life is full of pain and challenges, but if we let these challenges get the better of us, they will inevitably end up defining us as humans.
But I can’t be defined. I have enough friends to count on one hand and still have some change from.
Unfortunately, because of my ability to be myself truly, I seem to expose the darkest forms of behaviour that dwell deep within the human psych, which is usually what people try to hide from the world at all costs.
My nursing has never felt so far away.
Judge me if you like, I enjoy it now. Deception and lies are something I face daily, often in its worst forms.
The saddest thing about betrayal is it never comes from your enemies.
People like the sound of me at first, but when all is said and done, none of them have what it takes to be in my life, hence the change left over I mentioned earlier. Apart from my parents obviously.
I want to go to bed now and just go to sleep forever! I’m exhausted and hurt. But at the end of the day, all you fakers out there will never stop me being who I am. I’m unhinged AF and this is just all part of the fun for me.
Time for a break.