In the last week I’ve barely seen my daughter and I’ll be honest it’s starting to get to me
I felt better yesterday so went to see her at my mum’s house for the day. We stayed indoors and played games.
It was so good to spend the day with her and I really loved every second of doing that
We’d arranged to go bowling today which I’ve been rather excited about.
You appreciate the small things when you don’t see your kids as much as you’d like, so bowling was a great idea which I couldn’t wait for.
But In true head injury fashion today I’ve woken up and I can barely lift my head off the pillow.
My speech is so slurred I sound like I’ve had 10 bottles of desperados
It’s been 6 days of feeling like this now. I’ve lived in bed all week!
But neuro-fatigue is a tricky one
It leads you to believe you’re better but then has it’s way with you when you try to do things again. Hence why I saw Reese yesterday, I didn’t think I’d be this bad.
But I’m not complaining
I just miss spending time with her
I’ve never had her on my own overnight
Because of the nightmares. When she’s older hopefully we can explain them to her.
To be honest she’s pretty cool with my head issues. She seems to understand why I can’t do much with her and she never complains
She’s one of the few people who get me and accept me for who I am
Anyway. I’ve told her I can’t go bowling today but I’ve told her to she has to beat nanny B and have a good time.
I’m shit at bowling anyway
So now it’s back to the drawing board.
6 days in bed obviously wasn’t enough.
Maybe this is why I don’t take life too seriously. I also have a major dislike in seeing other people suffer, with whatever it might be. Life is too short for suffering.
Each challenge or hurdle in your life holds a gift, the trick is to find it,
That’s why I strongly believe that we should be grateful for the difficult times: they’re simply an opportunity to grow as a person.
Whilst I live for the moment, sometimes (albeit for a fleeting moment) I can’t help but long for the day Reese is old enough to understand why I seem to miss out on so much of her life.